November 30, 2010

Its exactly 3:34AM at my watch right now and.. still I can't sleep. Maybe I really need to correct my sleeping habits as soon as possible. The reason why am I awake is I slept the whole day. Yeheess. I slept the whole day. At around 1am, I watched my all-time-favorite movie, Serendipity. I don't know what is with this movie that I cannot make a year without watching it. I've been watching it since HS.

Few hours from now is a brand new day for me. I hope it won't suck this time because these past few weeks, it was a roller coaster!!!

Long weekend is finally over. Friday night with Philip (Alabang), Saturday night with cousins, Elcid, and "someone" (Bf, coco, and.............. home), Sunday night alone in my room (watched Going the distance of Drew Barrymore). I think i enjoyed my long weekend too much. I wasn't able to finish my speech in public speaking class and defense in filitri. Uggghh I hope I already graduated at this point of time. School makes my life so boring. No social life. No boyfriend. No freedom.

Its been a while since I last posted here. Sorry no time. he he he.

Okay, since I really don't know if someone is viewing this. Let me share what I feel right now. It was a roller coaster. Yehess. BUT not just a space shuttle in EK, this is like a roller coaster ride in US.

I've been hanging out with different people for the past 4 months. And I think Im enjoying it. I get to talk with my old friends. Dasma i miss you so much. I remember the nights in Dasma. Very memorable nights of my life. E** and me were talking (i wont drop names for you know he he) over the phone just a while ago, and suddenly, we talked about the things that happened to the both of us. I remember when we used to meet at gate 1 then he'll join me and my friends, then class, then dismissal he'll go with me to my dorm, then 12'o clock curfew he will go home. I also remember when he slept at my dorm then in the morning, there's a war happening. Our caretaker is shouting blah blah blah. Anyways, so much for that.

Also, I've been seeing A**** these past few months too. Aww I missed him. But I think there's no room for commitment if you're going to talk about our position in each other's life. I remember him saying "Kung inagaw na kita nun..siguro ang saya naten..alam ko namang kaya kitang agawin nun..hindi ko lang ginawa kase muka kang masaya".. Sheeet it killed me!!!! You know I am so melodramatic so I easily fall on these kind of lines.

I am happy right know. Uhmm yes. I think so. I must. Why shouldn't I?

At this point of my life, I think I know what I want. But I don't know why something is bothering me. It's like there's a missing piece in me. Oh well, I gotta find out soon.

Ill sleep for now. Need to wake up early. Tagaytay with friends in a bit.

Another month for me.

Photo taken exactly one year ago
"yellow cab at paseo de sta rosa"

This photo was taken exactly one year ago. November 1, 2009. Time flies so fast. Another month for me. So Hi November, please be nice to me. Its exactly 1:58AM and I can't sleep. I slept from 5pm-10pm so maybe that is the main reason why i can't sleep. Another reason is I need to finish my manuscript. My manuscript has been ignored by me for a couple of months. Until now, I don't know if how will I finish this. Many things happened to me. I've been to different places for the past 3 months. Met a lot of people. I am in the state of border line where I need to decide if what will I do for the next couple of months. Yes, Canada here I come! I know it will be a tough one but i will conquer you! he he he kidding aside. Everything was unpredictable indeed. Months ago, I was bound to graduate on December but f*cking Chemistry, I need to extend one more term. And my English is at stake also. I might be in Dubai for a couple of days meaning, i can be absent again. So as the saying goes "bahala na si batman". 

If you're going to ask me. I think i am all good. There's just few times that flashbacks occur. Oh yeah those f*cking flash backs. Why can't I just not think of those? I moved on but the things they have done was still in me and I know it will be forever. Karma to them hello?!?!!

Anyways, let us just talk about how was me in the past two weeks. My day usually starts with my morning class and ended with training. BTW, the street dance competition last saturday was soo awesome! Actually, the after party it is! We planned not to drink after the competition because we are so damn tired. But what happened was, we ended up drinking at Guillys. Drinking margarita while dancing was still fun! I thought i won't have a social life anymore. Then i thought of doing this again. Party party party! Haven't been that fun for a while though. Went home at 230AM, ohh I mean went to Neo's house at 230, sleep over again! I miss these times were we will sleep at someone's house. Not sleep, chat chat chat stories stories laugh laugh laugh. Woke up at around 10am then laugh laugh again. Breakfast then went home. 

When I arrived, mama and I had few talks about Canada. So there, I can feel the Canada vibes. I hope Kyla will visit me there he he he. 

My week was full of road trips. I remember when me and some friends went to Sucat just to eat an ice cream! Then go to Cabuyao just to check out Nike store then back to Sta. Rosa again. Then coincidentally mama will text me "i saw you, paluwas ka ng north. where are you going?" Of all the times that she will see me!!! Oh well that is what we call destiny:) Food trips every after training. Tagaytay trips. Atoys rice rice rice. Sleepless nights. Yes this is my life now! 

I am happy with my life right now. This is what I actually want. And I think I was just heaped by some harmful creatures for a year and few months. By the way, i miss what we usually do. Those eat-all-you-cans, road trips, church, serious conversations about life, tears, how you beg for my love, how I ask lord to guide you, how we laugh. But sorry dear, I don't miss you. That's life. Deal with it. 

Okay that's all for now. Imma try typing again with my love right now----Manuscript.

Roller coaster day!

I woke up at around 7:30AM to do my pre lab report. I went to our refrigerator to get some ingredients for today's activity. When I arrived at biology laboratory, my classmates said i already failed na. I also discovered that my group mates did not bring any material so i lend mine. I talked to my professor and she said I cant attend class because i was already FAILED DUE TO ABSENTS. I felt mad, hopeless, guilty, etc etc etc. I did not talk too much because I might cry in front of her so I hurried down to the parking lot. Engine start, A/C on, tears tears tears. F*cking sh*t. I feel so down. I don't know why other people makes other lives miserable. You know, I am Comarts and chemistry is not my forte. Its not that I can't understand it. There's just heavy feelings when it comes to her. Sorry but i dont know what is it all about. So the bottom line is, i will extend another term because of incosiderate professor. I know she's just doing her job but I think she needs some "heart".. Not everything is about science chemistry nanotechnology etc etc etc. I just wonder how she live her life with all those. I emailed her and she said she replied but i did not receive any. Yes its may fault to be absent but i think, she just needed a little heart for her students. She's always like that. That's why a lot of students got mad at her. She's making student's life miserable. On my situation, with her stoned heart, she did not know how it affected my future. Okay so much for this f*cking subject. "I just don't know why some people are like that----stoned hearted".

Anyway, I went to Alabang alone. Arrived at around 10-ish. Walk walk walk then ate at red ribbon. Full meal! ha ha ha. Then I went to cinemas and watched "petrang kabayo" alone. Yes i was alone. I was laughing alone. ha ha ha. Oh so there, after cinema, I went straight to slimmers(i think you know what people do here) gym-work out! Yes i went to a gym. Then 3 friends (johna, jobs, jazmine). They ate at Mcdonalds, I didn't. Then Cinema to watch petrang kabayo again. Another friend came(dion). Watch, laugh laugh laugh. I so love vice ganda he he. Then after the movie, jhona and jobi went home while "left ones" went to shakeys for dinner. Stories, laugh trips (as usual), stories, stories.. Then went home.

My mom was not mad at me when I told her about FDA. She just said "sayang ang time". So stayed at my room again. Simple day but roller coaster feelings. Morning i was so down and I was laughing all the time in the evening (yeah because of the stories). Life is truly unpredictable. I supposed.

So that was my "today". (-.-)

Time to pack up. Hello Subic, in few hours.

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